“It’s All My Fault,” because I couldn’t save you, I can’t even save myself or my children (only GOD can).  All the education, all the trials, all the advocacy, all the so-called connections to people in places meant to support you, I still couldn’t save you.

“It’s All My Fault,” you told me to keep going, and I didn’t know how to do life without you.  So I kept coming back. You had changed, and I still wouldn’t leave you like that.  I asked for help from your relatives, they only showed up at the end to tell me, “It’s All My Fault,” and to make sure I wouldn’t see your end.

So it is “All My Fault,” I knew you wanted to go a long time ago, and I asked you to stay. You didn’t deserve what you went through. You endured it all, but I saw right through the yells for me to leave, the pleas to let you be; they didn’t deserve your loyalty.

“It’s All My Fault” that I can’t even show up to celebrate your life because I don’t know how to deal with your death.  You gave me my faith “for such a time as this,” and I’m afraid I’m a fail you again, I’m afraid I will fail GOD again….

Psalm 34: 14-21 (KJV)

“Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it.

15 The eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry.

16 The face of the Lord is against them that do evil, to cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.

17 The righteous cry, and the Lord heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles.

18 The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.

19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all.

20 He keepeth all his bones: not one of them is broken.

21 Evil shall slay the wicked: and they that hate the righteous shall be desolate.”